I have failed God more times than I can count, but HE has never failed me.

I have wallowed in self pity and doubt.

I have been disobedient and willful. Demanded my own way. Selfish and ungrateful. 

Downright foolish and arrogant many times.

Knowing I was wrong, knowing I needed help, but refusing to change.

Why?

I would always say “It’s not because I don’t trust God, I do trust Him, but I don’t trust me. I have no confidence in myself.”

The truth is IF I HAVE FAITH IN GOD THEN, I CAN HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF, but I never could grasp that concept. Still I struggle with it. 

If I trust God then, I can trust him completely.

My faith is in Him, not in me.

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1

Confidence in what Christ can do in and through me. Confidence in what the Holy Spirit is leading, teaching and guiding me into each day as I seek the Lord. My faith, hope and confidence is not in me, but in Christ.

It is only when I focus my eyes on what Christ can do in me that I can believe I can be forgiven, restored and continually renewed. Without a continued confidence, faith and hope in Christ I would be lost. Just like the words of one of my favorite songs.

Without him, I could do nothing

Without him, I’d surely fail

Without him, I would be drifting

Like a ship without a sail

Jesus

Oh Jesus

Do you know him today?

Do not turn him away

Oh Jesus

Oh Jesus

Without him, how lost I would be

Without him, I would be dying

Without him, I’d be enslaved

Without him, life would be hopeless

But with Jesus, thank God I’m saved